Wednesday, March 21, 2012

And it's Wednesday....I've been meaning to write since the weekend but I've been a bit preoccupied with things on the home front.  Friday night, Alex decided he was going to come down for the weekend and couch surf with us, which was no problem.  It's always good times when Alex comes over.  Saturday, March 17th was Jeff and I's 10 year anniversary of dating.... Only things didn't start out that pretty. 

I guess I had woken up a bit earlier but decided it was far too early to be out of bed, and plus, I didn't want to disturb Alex sleeping on the couch.  So I went back to bed.  I awoke at 10 am, which is unusual for me, I hardly ever sleep in and if I do, it's not til 10 am.  I awoke to what I can only presume as what I thought was Baxter kicking my side, somethings the dogs dream and their legs kick out....Well not so.  I pulled back to covers once he didn't stop when I nudged him.  He was in full seizures, feet kicking away, frothing at the mouth and he peed himself....At this point I had already woken Jeff and we just both watched in horror and panic as our little guy convulsed....We just kept talking to him making sure that he knew we were with him and then after about 3 minutes, it stopped.  I was amazed that I wasn't a crying mess or just losing it myself but maybe it's because I knew I had to keep my shit together because he simply couldn't.  After that episode, Jeff and I proclaimed that we were going to have a quiet day if anything at all.  Around 1 pm, he was in the kitchen fussing around in his little dog crate, or so I had thought but it was making more noise than usual so I went to investigate.  Sure enough, his legs were going a mile a minute and he was all stiff, and foaming at the mouth.  I pulled him out because I didn't want him smushed up in there or to hurt his limbs by banging off the sides.  I flattened my arm and slid it under him and basically slid him out pizza styles from his crate.  Between Jeff and I, we made sure he wasn't smashing his head into the ceramic floors nor was he flailing into the cupboards.  All I can say is that it's something awful watching a loved one have a seizure and not being able to do a thing about it, but just to ensure their safety and be there for them when they come out of it.  It would take him about a full 10-15 minutes to snap out of his haze but I tell you, the sweetest thing after every episode was him looking up at me with this sudden clarity as though to say, "hey it's you mum," and I either would get a soft kiss or a nose brushed up along my face. That's when I knew that he was back with us.  Each time it was the longest three minutes I've ever endured, just hoping that the seizure would stop.  The last and final one was at 6:30 when he was sleeping in the kitchen as I was at the counter making up dinner for us, Alex and Bruce.  This last seizure was by far the worst and longest.  He opened up his mouth and it opened up so wide that I thought for sure he was going to break or dislocate his jaw.  And he cried out...that broke my heart.  This one lasted I'd say near 3 and a half to 4 minutes.  We decided enough was enough and took him to the emergency vet clinic to see wtf was going on.  I called our neighbour from downstairs and she was going to take me over.  I asked Jeff if he was cool staying with our company and finishing up dinner while I went with Baxter.  This last seizure really shook me to the core, I wasn't sure he was going to pull through from that one, not to mention that he had had about 10 minutes of combined seizures in one day, that's a lot for a little guy to endure.

Long story short, he went in, we found out that he'd lost about 3 lbs (I've cut back on giving them treats but I certainly wasn't giving them that much to explain the weight loss!) they took some blood..they couldn't get his veins in his legs so they went straight to the jugular....Poor boy's neck is so bruised :(  We were out of there within the hour.  He was given a diazepam and I was given an extra dose that should he have another seizure, I could give it to him to calm his nerves... Turns out thankfully he didnt have any further seizures so I wasn't required to give the dose to him.  Brought him home and he was so combative.  Boy was confused and didn't know what the hell was going on with his body, he was fighting for everything he was worth.  I had him in my arms and he'd go limp and then resist me and try to jump out of my arms, then repeat going limp...this went on for a good ten minutes I'd say then finally he gave in and passed out.  I wrapped him in a blanket and ate my dinner sitting with him sleeping on my legs on the floor.  Sunday we awoke and he was very off balance, over unsteady on his feet and a slight tick to his upper body.  We still aren't sure if it's perhaps any brain damage or if it simply just his muscles, joints and tendons just tight and sore from all the muscle contractions.  Seems every day he's getting better though.  He was slightly dragging his front paws, something that had me worried initially.  Jeff and I have been massaging them daily and giving him body rubs, especially in the morning before he gets out of bed.  His feet seem a bit tight but every day he's splaying his feet more and more.  Most importantly, every day he presents behaviour of the old Baxter so it keeps us happy knowing that bits of him are coming back.  He's still our little Baxter and so what if he has a slight tremor in his shoulders... Time will tell, but he's a persevering tough little dog man.

Going back to work tomorrow, looking forward to it but at the same time, I wish I could earn the income I make now and stay at home.  A stay at home momma to puppies?  LOL 

Thats all for now, it's a bit long winded this time around.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

So our cut off date for Bell internet was last Thursday.  Well, we had some free internet up until Saturday morning.  And tanked.  And then it escalated up to us trying to whore free wifi from other people around us that are too ignorant to have a secured internet connection.  Without the internet is crazy.  And when you've cut off cable, it makes for boring free air or just very quiet times.  We had ordered our modem from the new internet company and thankfully that was delivered yesterday and set up was yesterday as well. 

Last night we headed up to Barrie to have dinner at Jay's, basically to say goodbye to Jeff's parents until June when they get back from Florida.  Got home just after 11 and stayed up with the puppies til about 1 or not long before with Jeff and then we called it a night.

I have been wanting to add some random questions that I saw on Julia's page.  Thought they were creative enough and I wanted to answer them.

Hot yoga after work with Marah :)

Here are the questions:
1. What would you do if you won $1000 right now?
That's for me to know and not to discuss.  LOL.  Um well let's just say that I'd be purchasing some medical wares, and then maybe a nice dress, dinner our at Ruth Chris's.

2. What inspires you? (very vague, I know).
Yoga, seeing others struggle and overcome, I inspire myself to be a better person each and every day.

3. Where in the world would you go if you had an all-expenses paid vacation gifted to you?
This isn't a tough one.  Kenya OR anywhere with amazing diving.  Barbados or Galapagos or Maldives.

4. Favorite season of the year and why? Spring and summer.  Because there's so much more sunlight and I'm generally a happier person with more sun and light.

5. Favorite place to shop, online or in store?
Hmmm.. Jacob I'd say.

6. If you could meet any celebrity, alive or dead, who would it be and why?
Oh wow.  That's a difficult one.  I can think of a handful but two that stick out to me are Dame Daphne Sheldrick or Cynthia Moss.
7. What is your worst habit?  Being a worry wart.

8. This or That: Wine or Beer. (Mmmm, salivating). And why?  Wine, but beer is nice on a hot day.  I just don't like the bloated feeling.

9. Name the three things you'd grab from your house in a fire.  Jeff, some pictures and my two dogs, no question.

10. What's your favorite trait about yourself?  That I'm a sincere and generous person that puts others first.

11. If you had to eat one thing every single night for dinner what would it be?
Hmmmm....I have no idea.

Friday, March 9, 2012

Oooh I love these types of blog entries.  Not tagging anyone though.

The Rules

1. Post 11 random things about yourself
2. Answer the questions set for you in the post you were tagged in
3. Create 11 new questions for your tagees to answer
4. Tag them on Twitter, Facebook or your blog

Eleven Random Things about Myself

1.  For years and years, I said I didn't want children.  I know that when you have children, it stops being about you but rather about that other little person that you've created and love so much.  As I've gotten older, I realise now that I'd love to have one baby.  Just one would be enough and make me happy.

2.  I have never been diagnosed but I definitely think I have a touch of OCD when it comes to having anxiety about clutter and order and piles of things.  I get stressed out if things are messy and I can't find something that I'm looking for.

3.  I've only ever owned one breed of dogs and Charlie and Baxter are my 5th and 6th of the breed - Bichon Frise.  I'm allergic to cats and dogs so my mom went to hypoallergenic route when my bunny got ill suddenly and passed away.

4.  I hardly know my father's side of the family.  I only ever knew my Dad's parents, Granny and Grandpa.  Dad's sisters estranged themselves from the family when my dad died, after my mom and grandparents had to make a difficult decision to take him off the life support.  We knew there was no chance of him getting better and he didn't want to live like that.  So he told my mom to take care of his little girl and to let him go.  And they did.  My mom lost her best friend, her husband, partner, lover, life companion, her everything all in a matter of months.  I can't imagine how she felt although I do have vague rememberings of her being sad and lonely.  My father has 2 sisters and they've not acknowledged me since I was 3 years old.  Why?  Because they accused my grandparents and mother of "killing" my dad.  I'm not missing out any, though, I don't think.  They're a waste of breath in my opinion.  It killed me to see them at Grandma's funeral saunter over to Dad's grave and pay their respects.

5.  I'm a chronic list maker/to do list maker.  This area has gotten better but I still make lists.  And if we're going away, good luck, I make lists for my lists.

6.  I wish I was rich and could be this magnificent philanthropist that does all this volunteer works, someone that advocates....especially when it comes to animals.  I wish I could save them all.

7.  One day I hope to have a Harlequin Great Dane.  If you don't know what that is, google it.  They're magnificently beautiful dogs.

8.  I want to go to the Westminster Kennel Club Annual Dog Show in New York one year and stay in the two or three hotels where all the dogs stay.  I think my face would hurt from all the smiling.

9.  I don't have very many friends.  Acquaintances, sure, but true friends, not so much.  Most friendships I've always found to not be reciprocal.  It's supposed to be a give and take, not bleeding someone dry.

10.  Next year I'm going to do my yoga teacher training.  And I'm thinking that Bali or India may just be the place to go to.  We'll see.  Including accommodations, flights and the course, plus 30 days off, it adds up to what we pay here in North America.  Crazy!!

Questions from others:

1. Massage or facial? Massage.  I've had one facial in my life and due to my skin sensitivities, I tend to go with anything non-facial related.

2. The one facebook-ism that gets on your nerves:  duckface photos or people trying to elicit questions from elusive status messages. 
3. Be honest. What's your biggest insecurity? Being a failure and let down.  Oh and my small boobs.

4. One word to describe your life AT THIS MOMENT.  Each day is better than the last. 

5. Did you have any odd habits or preferences as a child? I was a Mommy's girl, I used to bite my nails like something fierce to the point that Mom would put Tabasco sauce on them and I'd still bite them.  I'm hardcore, I guess? LOL

6. On what side of the sink do your dishes pile up?  Left side and right side is the clean side.

7. What's the most embarrassing thing in your fridge right now?  Champagne from our wedding night four years ago. LOL  Other than that, nothing is embarrassing.  Just the usual....

8. What websites and in what order do you visit them every morning?  usually the Ele cams at the Elephant Sanctuary, DSWT,,,,,  Those I open first thing when my PC turns on.

9. Did you (or do you) have a myspace page?  I did at one point and it was lame. 

10. Would you ever sky dive?  Yes I would.

11. Post the last thing you pinned on Pinterest.  I'm pretty sure it was an image of a beautiful destination on my "Travelling Places" board.  Love Pinterest, highly addictive and not conducive to productivity.  LOL

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Had a rough night.  Again.  I look spectacular today.  Not.  I had to cake on the concealer under my eyes because my bags have their own bags.  It's rough looking.  And I've got purple eyes too.  That's stress for you.

Yesterday I went to a spinning class with Jessica, that was a bunch of fun.  Sweat like a pig and had some nice eye candy of an instructor to stare at so it wasn't half bad.  We ended up going to the new gym at Yonge and Adelaide and it's like a damn hotel.  It's gorgeous.  Must go there more often, however most of their yoga classes there are paid extra classes and its' hot yoga.  I'm not paying additional money to do yoga that would otherwise normally be free and included but because you're adding heat to the mix?  Yeah whatevs, I don't think so.

So this Thursday our cable and internet gets cut off for a year to save money.  We're getting Acanac internet but we'll just have free air cable, which is basically 6 channels (not bad eh?), the rest we'll be downloading or watching online.  I'm not fussed too much, I can watch all the "shit" tv shows online that Jeff hates so much and not irritate the fuck out of him.  It's a hobby of mine that I excel at - irritating the fuck out of Jeff.  LOL.  Plus, I think this down time or quiet time will be good.  I'll take the dogs out walking more, I'll be reading more, I'll be writing more....It's going to be weird though.  The nice thing about the new internet were getting is that there's no cap for data, it's unlimited.  Can you say, "Winning!".

Yogastock registration just opened up this morning although it's glitching.  The Yoga Conference that I'm attending with Marah is quickly approaching at the end of March, which I'm excited for.

"Identification of our selves to the world is called ego.  When this link disappears, then only Truth remains."  Baba Hari Dass

Friday, March 2, 2012

I read so many blogs and enjoy their reading content.  Me, on the other hand, I don't have anything great to write about ever.  LOL.  I do need to post some new pictures up on here.

Last night got obliterated and it was great. lol.  Crawled into bed with the dogs after midnight, only to awake 5 short hours later.  That's okay though, I can catch up tomorrow and have a nap while Jeff is out doing his restricted firearms class/certification.  I'll catch up on all the "crap tv" that I've got on the PVR that he mercilessly hates. 

Aerial yoga starts in a couple of weeks.  God I'm so bloody eager and excited to get our debt paid off so I can start my yoga teacher training.  Sunday I have a class with Kelly.  Glenn is back from South America next week.  And then the Yoga Conference is at the end of the month, that I'm going to with Marah too.  We're doing a 6 hour class with Sean Corne on the Friday and I'm doing another 2 hour with her on Saturday morning.  I think Marah's doing a Maria Garre class on sun salutations.  Totally looking forward to this, I'm in love with yoga and just how therapeutic it is and good for the mind, body and soul.  It really, really is.

On Sunday at some point Im also heading over to Sheila's so I can see little Ella, her 12 week old english bull dog.  She's already gained almost 5 lbs in 3 weeks since I last saw her.  I can't wait, she's just a little dumpling, so adorable you could eat her up.  :)

Anyways have a great one kids!
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