Wednesday, October 31, 2012

My Work Out Regimen

The following is what I do on a weekly basis.  There isn't much that makes me not go or doesn't allow for me to go work out.  I actually get pissy if I can't make it to the gym, I've really depended on going daily, if not twice a day, especially since I quit smoking last year but it's also just a good routine to have.  It's good for the heart, good for the soul and it's actually a great way to break up the monotony of the day.  I usually go at lunch with a workmate, Danielle and we motivate one another to go on the worst of days when neither one of us feels like going.  Often Jessica will join us but she's been in hearings for the last couple of weeks and Marah is trying to get back in the swing of things.

I've noticed huge changes in my legs, hips and ass.  I have an ass now.  We don't own a scale at home, which is actually kind of nice since I used to perpetually weigh myself growing up, which no doubt contributed to me counting calories or not eating at all so that I could be skinny.  I have gained some weight but it's all muscle, as my clothes still fit me.  In fact, I can actually still fit into clothing that's 10 years old.  I know you're thinking WTF does she have 10 year old clothing for?!  Yeah, well I take care of my shit, that's why it isn't all falling apart.

So the week looks like this:
  • Spinning on Monday at Lunch
  • Spinning on yoga on Tuesday at Lunch
  • Spinning on Wednesday at Lunch; yoga in the evening
  • Yoga with Glen on Thursday; yoga with Danielle in the evening
  • Core class, then Combat class on Friday at lunch
  • On the weekends, I usually try and squeeze in at least one or two yoga classes.
All of the above keeps me a happy, healthy person.  It also affords me to be able to eat just about anything I want to without feeling guilty too. 

Anyways, short post. I must go.  Happy Halloween.  Be safe :)

Monday, October 29, 2012

Injuries throughout the weekend... of course there are!

Much like the rest of North America, particularly the eastern seaboard, we're keeping watch of the weather, rain and high winds.  Thankfully we're inland enough but still, this week looks like much of a write off that's for sure.  I got a chill on Saturday while out in the rain at the gun club with Jeff, his brother and Nadean, so to say that I'm welcoming all this rain this week would be a gross misstatement. 

I've been pretty injury prone since Friday.  I gashed my leg when I should have gotten a chair and reached for something that way.  Instead, I decided to jump and as I jumped, my leg got the metal edge of the ironing board (that I don't use, so why in the hell do I still have this?!!?).  Moments after that, I bashed my elbow into my knee, much like when you hit your funny bone, you have a similar bone that you can hit in your knee that will create the same reaction.  So that's brused.  And then last night, putting laundey away in the dark, you know, because I could have turned on the lights and all (!!), I bashed my shin into the corner of our bed frame (wooden bed frame set from Ikea) and it started bleeding immediately.  But what was funny was my jumping and hopping around and screaming and cussing under my breath because Jeff was sleeping.  What can I say? I'm fucking epic. And clumsy.  Very clumsy.  Extremely clumsy.  Have I made myself clear?! LOL

I haven't got much time to write so I'll break it up in chunks and write more about the weekend tomorrow.

Cheers! :)

Friday, October 26, 2012

It's Friday again folks

So it's that awesome day again, Friday! Woot woot!  Tonight I'm training a bit at the yoga studio, then I've got to go pick

I'm talking to my mom right now and she's terrified of me killing myself.  Wow.  My mom has never uttered such words.  That's flooring. 

Thursday, October 25, 2012

40 Tips for an Exceptional, Superb & Powerful Life

40 Tips for an Exceptional, Superb & Powerful Life

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*I took it from , however.  Thanks!!*

1. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day and while you walk, smile. It is the ultimate anti-depressant.

2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.

3. Buy a TiVo (DVR), tape your late night shows and get more sleep.

4. When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement, "My purpose is to _____ today."

5. Live with the 3 Es - Energy, Enthusiasm, Empathy, and the 3 Fs - Faith, Family, Friends.

6. Play more games with friends and read more books than you did last year.

7. Make time to practice meditation and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.

8. Spend more time with people over the age of 70 and under the age of six.

9. Dream more while you are awake.

10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less foods that are manufactured in plants.

11. Drink some green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, seafood, broccoli, almonds & walnuts.

12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.

13. Clear your clutter from your house, your car, and your desk and let new energy into your life.

14. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, energy vampires, issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead, invest your energy in the positive present moment.

15. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn and pass all your tests. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

16. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a college kid with a maxed out charge card.

17. Smile and laugh more. It will keep the energy vampires away.

18. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

20. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

21. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

22. Make peace with your past, so it won't mess up the present.

23. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

24. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"

27. Forgive everyone for everything.

28. What other people think of you is none of your business.

29. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.

30. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

32. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

33. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

34. The best is yet to come.

35. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

36. Do the right thing.

37. Call your family often.

38. Each night before you go to bed complete the following statements: "I am thankful for _____." "Today I accomplished _____."

39. Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.

40. Enjoy the ride. Remember that this is not Disney World and you certainly don't want a fast pass. Make the most of it and enjoy the ride.

Having some discretion

So when I'm angry or upset, I have no discretion.  I just want to get it out and off my chest so that I feel better.  However, it isn't necessary that I air all of our dirty laundry and portray Jeff as being the ultimate asshole.  Quite the opposite, I'm the self-centered, selfish asshole.  I can be a hell of a selfless person most times but others, I'm selfish and I think of myself and myself alone. Why?  Well probably because I feel like at the end of the day, relationship or marriage aside, I've got to have my own back because I can only rely on myself.  But, that's turn into me being selfish and not thinking about us but more about "me".  So I need to stop that.  I need to practice to be more patient, more kind, more thoughtful, more giving, more sincere and open to conversation even if it's going in a direction that I don't want it to go. 

Having said all this, I really need to take a step back and appreciate how fortunate I am in this life.  I have love, I have wonderful friends: Marah, Danielle, Danielle, Jessica, Kelly, Sheila, Tracy... Some of the nicest, more caring individuals out there.

The below are what inspire me at this moment.  The image about Ego and the Soul is so, so true.  Seperating the ego from one's true self, one needs to recognize they are seperate from one another, but often the ego gets the upper hand.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Being followed

So I'm onto him and I think he's onto my knowing I'm onto him. It's a weird feeling let me tell you... He lurked back quite a bit today. Yesterday I passed him getting out of a car. I have a retired cop tailing me Monday. I just can't decide if I want to go to the police and get them to warn him, bc in by ready to press charges .. Which would lead into testifying, and I don't wanna go that far yet. No nudity today, yesterday about 5 mins on display in the window. Blinds are now open and light on.... Lord help me. Don't worry I've grown eyes in the back of my head and I walk much quicker than this son of a bitch.
Bare with me, I'll be updating my shit over the next couple of days.. Be it the layout but also adding a couple of pages.  I'm all over the place so I need to organize myself first and foremost.

Monday, October 22, 2012

Admirers, stalkers.. Who wants one?1

So one stalker, one creepy starer on the train (yes that's right, two from the train) and two dudes hardcore checking me out at the gym and going out of their way to give me the nod after yoga.... How flattering, but really whats going on? ESP the stalker, it's too much lol

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Sunday funday...

Hey-lo!  So this weekend I'm up in B-town looking after Jeff's brother's kidlets, but not so kidlets.  One is almost 10, one is 15 and one is almost 14.  So really it's just making sure they don't sneak out of the house and be unruly.  It's been pretty chill thus far, a nice relaxing weekend to be honest.  I brought my lap top and book, fully intending on immersing myself into crap tv that I don't want around jeff or subject him to watch.  Or at least I try not to, I try to be respectful about that because he thinks it's garbage and doesn't get why I watch some of the shit I do, for instance, Intervention, Rehab with Dr. Drew, Couples Therapy (okay, I'm guilty here because I wanted to see what this Courtney Stodden chick was all about...)...  but nevertheless, much of yesterday was spent doing tons of laundry, making dinner, vacuuming the entire upstairs of Jeff's brother's house and folding all said 3928723 loads of laundry.

Today much was spent relaxing while Tyler had a friend over to play some video games with him, the girls I've yet to see although I do know there snuck down to the kitchen to make themselves oatmeal, they're laying low.

Just the kind of weekend that I've been looking forward to for awhile :)

Been taking a few artsy yoga pictures here over the weekend for my October challenge, a few scenic pictures with some beautiful fall colours and a few dog pics here and there.  I'm missing the dogs actually, they've spent the weekend at my mom's, which she's been loving.  She took them all out for a walk together (all 4) and many people commented her out on her adventures.  The comments usually vary from caesar millan to "you should get another dog eh?!".

Anyways, I've got some tidying up to do and to make the boy dinner as I'm ordering pizza for the rest of us and he can't eat that...unfortunately for him, due to all the food allergies he has.

Here's some pictures from the weekend ;) xo

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Sometimes you just need to cry... and now would be my time.  I'm so stressed about shit I feel like I have a 500lb man sitting on my chest.

And why does every fucking time I get stressed, Aunt Flo makes an appearence.  It's awesome.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Another day.... another dollar....

So what do you do when your significant other won't talk to you or tell you what's wrong when something is visibly wrong, you're moping and you look like your cat just died?  There's an awkward air around the hubby and I right now and I feel like I'm on pins and needles waiting for the shoe to drop.  Did you discover this blog and think that I air too much dirty laundry?  Are you upset that you barely saw me all weekend (yet also made no attempts to ask me how my days were, how I was - me apologising for being in and out so much)?  are you upset because you've finally had enough?  Are you upset because I pass out because I'm fucking exhausted at NORMAL people know because we start our days early, I work my ass off at the gym...? What?  Because telling me nothing is wrong just isn't cutting it. 

And you know what's frustrating?  Earlier this year telling me I'm taking too much time off, which I'm paid for btw, but yet you're doing the same day thing all the time?  You take a day off work and that's money out of your pocket.. Sure fine whatever, I don't usually make a big deal out of you staying home but man, why is it excuseable for you to stay home and lose out on money but yet you can complain about me or if I say I'm not feeling well, I get the whole "suck it up buttercup" attitude....It's just not fair.  It's like there are a different set of rules of each of us.

I think I'm just trying to find anything to be frustrated with but it's hard to shake this feeling... I don't know what's going on.  I feel like there's this massive football field of space in between us.  I miss him.  I miss seeing him smile and talk to me genuinely and kindly and interested in my opinions and what my day has been like..... I miss US.  I feel like I find out more of what's going on in his life and his head when I overhear conversations he has with his parents or through emails that I read from his parents or back to me...what the fuck is wrong with me?  I'm really sick of this tension/stress headache I've had for DAYS now.

I know it's just a rough patch (or perhaps not, if he's finally had an epiphany and decided to leave me), but I feel so alone... there's just so much silence and me running amok with my stupid ass thoughts... I'm just sad... I miss him.  And I love him to pieces.  I'm quick to talk negatively about him but man, I swear this man has made me a better person from the one I once knew at 18 years old.  We go through our share of ups and downs but I'm not liking this down moment we're having one bit.  I miss snuggling with him....

Sigh... this too shall pass.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

I've said this before but whatever, fuck I feel so alone somedays. I have this huge lump in my throat and hot tears run down my face..... It's as though he has no interest or doesnt care, doesn't want to hear about my day.....doesn't help out when I'm scrambling to make meals when I'm scrambling working with pet clients... Why doesn't he care? 
Doesn't he see the pure joy in my face when I tell him things and isn't it obvious that I'm happy?  Does he resent me for being happy because perhaps he's not happy with himself these days?  It's so unfair.  I work so fucking hard, only to have to defend myself or why isn't laundry done earlier?  Well, I don't see you helping so back the frig off.  Yes I'm angry and annoyed because it's because any concern I have that I voice is bullshit and deflecting from the situation at hand, ie diverting from his points and his issues that bother him about me.  I know a lot of this is my own insecurities and sure, it seems like I shit on the guy a lot, but dammit is it too much to ask to get a hand?  To maybe seem as though you're interested in what I'm saying or hearing about my day...  Just so frustrated....

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Yogaaaaaaaa ...

It's Thursday folks, you know what that means? It's Thursday! Bahahaha. 

Did a yoga sesh at lunch today and I think I need to be doing more yoga, I'm really tight in the legs and it's from all the spinning that I do.

just a quick post for now. I'll write a longer one tomorrow. :P

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Its Tuesday, but my work "Monday".. What a weekend

So I'm going to try to embrace being nicer and softer and more kind.  Why?  Because somewhere along the line where I began down this path the past year in search of more happiness, I've left J in the dust.  It's not that I don't care about him or don't love him and I think I'm finally seeing it now, even though he's told me a couple of times he's lonely.  I always balked at him even saying those words because it seemed ludicris.. How can you possibly feel alone and neglected when I'm right there?!  I guess somewhere along the line he started feeling neglected.  I didn't set out to make him feel like a pile of shit, but I think I get it now.. I see his eyes well up and it breaks my heart.  When did I turn into this psycho monster that doesn't show her hubby that I love him more than life itself.  I think we've reached a point where we're almost too comfortable with one another, we lack communication because we assume or think we know what the other is going on about and we've just taken eachother for granted.  I know I can admit to those things, whether he can or agrees or disagrees, that's his opinion.  But I honestly don't believe that I'm this awful, uncaring person that doesn't care about him anymore.  I want him to look at me with that light in his eye that he had when I first met him.. I want to see that smile or laugh..... *sigh*  I'm so exhausted today.. Needless to say the past couple of days were a bit hard and stressful. 

Nevertheless, here are some pictures of my weekend. :)


Friday, October 5, 2012

TGIF! Again! lol

My new *Big Buddha* bag..
Love it..
hard to tell from the colour but
it's an olive colour


And there are some shots of some yoga poses I've been doing for the Month of October for this Instagram picture thing.  I think it's fun :)

Just got back from the gym and I feel great.  A great way to start off the weekend and a long weekend at that.  It's Canadian Thanksgiving this weekend.  I think we're going over to my mom's at some point, Sunday or Monday I'm sure.  Mom's back from her trip and we're back home as well, which means the boys are snoozing like mad trying to regain all the energy that they spent at Nana's house for the week... They're all CLEAN.. I gave them a bath last night and they're nice and white again.

I was going to go to a yoga/meditation class tonight at 5:40 with Danielle but I just feel like going home and not rushing out.  I just feel like taking easy, so I think I'll do just that.  I'm hitting up the 9 am class tomorrow morning anyways so.... And perhaps on Sunday or Monday I'll go and do a spin class to work off the extra calories I'll be consuming this weekend.  :)

I'll be back throughout the weekend.  Until then.... <3>

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Randomness Tuesday

A day in the life of...I'll give you a sample of my days during the last week that I've been staying at my mom's house house sitting her two dogs.

5:15 - 5:40 am - This is normally the time frame that I wake up... Usually if it's earlier, that means that I have to drag my tired ass to the shower.  If I'm in the shower, the "kids" aka the dogs all stay in bed and patiently wait until I emerge from the shower.  I will either half get dressed or get dressed in 20 minutes once breakfast for the dogs is over and done with.  If Jeff is having a shower, I wake him up.

5:40 am - Outside for pee & heat up Keurig and start measuring out all the meds for my mom's pooches.  I start getting their breakfast ready.

5:45 am - I let the herd in from outside and they all go barreling into the kitchen to wait for me.  They all usually patiently sit there as I mix it up and what not.  Sometimes Quincey will bark, to which I tell him to shut up because his bark hurts your ears.  They all eat in their respective corners.

5:50 am - Outside again.  I start putting on makeup as I get a cup of coffee ready for Jeff to take to work.

5:55 am - If Jeff hasn't woken yet, I get him up and he's quick to get ready and come downstairs.  He says good morning to all the dogs and gives them kisses and usually cleans their eyes before he leaves.  He works 5 minutes away and starts at 6:30 so he doesn't really rush in the mornings simply because he doesn't have to.

6:00 am - 6:05 am - I kiss Jeff goodbye for the day.

6:05 am - 6:20 am - Finish getting ready, finish my make up and make sure my hair doesn't look like a mess.

6:32 am - Leave on the train to go downtown

7:30 am - Arrive in Toronto; walk to work.

7:45 am - 3:45 pm - Work; I typically go to the gym at 12 or 1 pm, whichever the day may be.  Today I went to a 12:10 spinning class.

3:45 pm - Realise it's time to go and scramble to get my things together to catch the 4:10 pm train home.

4:10 pm - Leave to head back home

5:10 pm - Arrive back in my hometown

5:15 pm - Head home, I usually walk home from the train but I've had my mom's car for the last week since she's been away.

5:15 - Bedtime - I partake in herbal remedies and that's all I'm going to say.  Some people have strong views about this, I do not, obviously.  I personally think there are worse things in this world than that.  By far and large.

5:30 pm - Get undressed from my work clothes and put on comfy clothes or yoga gear if I'm going to a yoga class later on.

5:30 pm - Make coffee

6:00 pm - 6:30 pm - Put on dinner, feed the dogs.

7:00 pm - 8:00 pm - Eat

*If I'm going to a yoga class, I leave at 7:30 pm and I'm out til 9:15 pm*
The rest of the evening I chill, clean, watch tv or surf the web.. Walk the dogs, run errands, pet sit.. etc.

11:00 pm - 12:30 am - Somewhere in this time frame I go to bed. 

Pretty boring eh?

After a sweaty gym sesh!

My Yoga Studio <3 bliss="bliss">
Day 1 October Yoga Challenge Asana: Urdhva Hastasana

Monday, October 1, 2012

Weekend in a few short words....

So this weekend turned into many firsts.. I played my first 9 holes of Golf and I also learned how to use my Espresso machine at home, all thanks to Jeff though, otherwise I'm sure I would have made a giant coffee grind mess. :P 

Friday night started off low-key.  I went home and then went to a meditation/yoga class with Danielle, which was exactly what I needed to kick start my weekend into a good mode. Or so I'd thought? lol  Friday night Greg came over and all ended up having an early night on the account that we were getting up early the next morning to be in Zephyr to play golf for the company tourney day.  It was a really nice day for it, we couldn't have asked for better weather, really.  It was pure jokes though.. I think I created more divits in the ground that hitting the balls.  I wasn't bad but certainly not a natural and it's not my sport, so to speak. LOL.  Jeff did well, of course doesn't he always, he excels at everything he does.  It was a really great day out, it rained a bit in the evening but the dinner back at Ann's was delish and such a beautiful spread she put together.  We ended up leaving around 7 I believe because I had the dogs to tend to back at home.

A picture of Dina on hole 4 or 5 I think it was...


Yes, I'm wearing a boa.

had a grab a shot of the big man in bed, I tucked him in of course, which he didn't mind in the least bit.. :)

I thnk that's all for now because I'm raving pissed off at this sad excuse of a human being that a friend of ours EX-gf is.  What a moron.  Regardless, all in all, a good weekend was had. :)
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